So, after spending the week before the holidays in the Peace Corps Office in Managua, I had a serious sit-down with the PCMO who was handling my file. What had started out as a day-trip to Esteli for the Va Pues magazine meeting had turned into a second round of the inexplicable rash I got a little less than a week ago. So, the good news is that it means I am probably not allergic to Cipro, but the PCMOs admit that there is really nothing else they can medically do in Nicaragua. And thus the discussion began about Medically Evacuating me home to the States to get checked out. Just to clarify, MedEvac means you are sent to DC or your Home of Record and you have 45 days to recover and get medically cleared to return to service. This protocol is meant for Volunteers in all sorts of situations, normally much more serious (broken bones, serious surgery, etc.), but the PCMOs also discussed the practicality of giving the body 100% chance of getting back to a baseline of health. And then I got another bacterial infection while here this week in Managua....which decided it.
Dad and Sean are still coming and we are still going to enjoy the Holiday Week as much as my health will allow, but I will also be packing and organizing my things in case the evacuation turns into a medical separation. The PCMOs have been incredibly supportive and helpful in getting all the information and paperwork set-up and staying positive. They have been very honest about the various moods that go along with Med Evac. The Assistant Director for the whole PCNicaragua also sat down with me and regaled me with 2-3 other stories of Volunteers who had been fine during all of Training and been completely prepared for site and their service and then could not acclimate to the new climate or for whatever reason, spent the first year of their service too miserable to be effective. "You're not the first, and you will certainly not be the last, and there is no shame in taking care of your body." Thanks Miguel!
Since Peace Corps has been my dream job since I was in high school, and even though it is just an evacuation, it's still a blow. There is a small sense of relief, knowing that it's not just me and that I used all my options available in country. There is also disappointment and a little anger that my body does not seem to be able to get used to my site when other Volunteers don't have problems (or just don't say anything). There is also anger with my site and community, as it is most likely the contaminated water and food that is playing a critical role in this whole thing. There is also overall sadness (that I am getting better about accepting) in that i was just getting warmed up to living on my own and settling into a routine while getting projects set up for later in the New Year. While these may still happen, it is like being thrown into a limbo similar to waiting for my Peace Corps post. I am also anxious that as of right now I haven't had a lot of overwhelming positive experiences in my site (in part because I haven't been in my site that often), so I don't feel I have a resounding reason to go back. However, I have probably spent equal amounts of time in site and in Managua, which is not efficient or effective for getting projects done that require building trust and personal relationships. Hard as it is to admit, Peace Corps is also only 27 months, and I would rather not damage my immune system in the long-run. And there is still the basic fact that I have no idea what is making me sick, which means that if I don't go home, I will returning to a place that I do know will continue to make me sick. That just doesn't seem very smart. But one step at a time.....
Hopefully this will keep everyone up to date on the happenings in Nicaragua during my 27 months as a Peace Corps Volunteer.
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Book Review: Living Poor
Living Poor: A Peace Corps Chronicle
Moritz Thomsen
Thomsen is a 40 something Agriculture volunteer in Ecuador.
After a few medical false-starts, he settles into the quaint little town of Rio
Verde and thus goes the process of completing his service. As a volunteer, his
projects (the size and scale) and his willingness to use his living allowance
to help fund them and his neighbors astounds me. This book came at the perfect
time as I am starting to see the deeper levels of relationships, both good and
bad, in my own community and starting to become disillusioned by the mechanism
and paradigm of poverty while also coming to grips with the dynamic and
two-way street that is development. As a
Volunteer you hear stories about PCVs who were practically adopted, but this
glosses over the subtle (and not so) requests for money and gifts and attempts
to put a pricetag on the gringo. Thomsen describes this perfectly as the
“search for a patron:” for someone who will take care of you, who will do what
you have been trained to think you can’t-support yourself. I laughed and cried
throughout the struggles of the chicken project, the fishing projects and the
trials and tribulations of the co-op. And the eventual financial understanding
of the community, where a dollar is a fortune, is heartbreaking but familiar.
There are hilarious moments interspersed as well, like machete fights,
miscommunications, overturned fishing boats and of course the rides into the
city crammed into a truck with livestock inside and on top of the vehicle.
Thomsen does make a profound difference in the lives of Ramon, Orestes, and
Vinceta, his co-op corps, nit at what price? As he says, “living poor is like
being sentenced to exist in a stormy sea in a battered canoe, requiring all
your strength to stay afloat, living wave to wave.” We are taught as Americans
and PCVs to develop, to improve, to better people. But it’s impossible to do
this equally for everyone. So benefits are unevenly distributed and then the
jealousy and isolation begins. Like the city kid who is shunned by his own for
going to college, the corp co-op members are threatened and almost destroyed by
petty rumors and exasperated fueds. The people will truly be happy when they
find peace and success within their own culture and customs. Projects fail and
flounder because people are afraid of change, afraid to trust, and afraid and
threatened by what change might bring: the audacity of hope is crushed by the
comfortable familiarity of abject, but communal, poverty. There’s no way the people
in Rio Verde or Thomsen could have known the social consequences before they
happened but it is heartbreaking to read how the co-op general store suffers
from theft and the storekeeper can’t help himself from buying too many new
things. There is Ramon, who uses his
money to take his wife out of the town to give birth in a hospital and start a
life properly nourished and nurtured (Protein deprivation for the 1st
5 yearsof life permanently destroys up to 25% of human intelligence). We are
taught to think this should be the norm; that with new money, everyone will be
Ramon and invest in health and education. But the truth is that the Ramons, who
are the shunned city kids (to beat the metaphor into the ground), are the
exception and the material luxury goods and status symbols are too tempting in
addition to a lack fo experience and knowledge of how to invest and save for
long-term planning. I knew development was hard and dangerous, but this 1st
hand account of a PCV stands as a warning and a guide for my own roller-coaster
of feelings towards paradigm of effective and sustainable change.
Book Review: Walk in the Woods
A Walk in the Woods: Rediscovering America on the
Appalachian Trail
Bill Bryson is funny. Let’s just get that out of the way.
Ok. This travel journal recounts the exploits and adventures of Bryson and his
friend, Katz, as they, like so many others, try to walk the entire Appalachian
Trail. For those of you who don’t know, the AT is more than 2,000 miles long
and you have to climb to the highest point in almost every state on the East
Coast. Spoiler Alert: they don’t climb the whole thing in this book. But that’s
not the point. I will also brag a little in that I have done sections of the AT
(including the great Katahdin, which Bryson does not summit). But he has
summited Mt. Washington in New Hampshire, which is still on my bucket list. But
that’s not the point. It’s not the competitive athletic nature that abounds in
this novel. Quite the contrary, Bryson mixes anecdotal accounts of the
day-to-day, with its typical bumbles and blunders, with lesser-known
information about the history of the trail and the nature and government
surrounding it. Granted the majority of this information comes when both men
are still invigorated by the initial days in the south, but I appreciated
Brysons respect for the little towns that he stumbles upon and what they used
to be. I didn’t know about the dangerous
Pennsylvania coal fire towns or that the AT was originally meant to be a string
of hostels and basically vacations and retreats above treeline, which,
depending on who you ask, it kind of is. But my favorite parts resound with the
funny frustration of preparing for an adventure that sounds much better in your
head than when you are schlepping along ridgelines; the packing list, the food,
the backpack posture, the weight, where to clip things, your first time at the
outing gear store with the guy who is clearly (ridiculously even) more
experienced and intense and excited about carabeaners (not sure how to spell
that) than you. And then there are the bears. Pardon my French, but the best
line of the whole book comes as Bryson is describing what he would do if not
one, but 4 bears, came into his tent: “ Why, I would die, of course. Literally
shit myself lifeless. I would blow my sphincter out my backside like one of the
unrolling paper streamers you get at children’s parties- I daresay it would
even give a merry toot- and bleed to death in my sleeping bag.” Bears are an issue along the AT, but nowhere
near to the obsessive degree to which Bryson makes them out to be. But it’s
still funny. And the characters along the trail are priceless, including
Chicken John who keeps getting lost on the trail and the woman who keeps
clearing her ears by snot-rocketing. But it’s the purposeful meditation that
comes with putting one foot in front of the other, and becoming “a walker” that
was the most powerful. Walking through nature and history is one thing, but
having the fortitude and the discipline (or the lack of social life) to decide
to partake in some of the most grueling walking there is on the East Coast, takes
a personality that one might say is similar to that of those that would join
the Peace Corps. You know what you are getting into in the outline, but not in
the details, not in the day-to-day. And it is the same personality that has the
ability to adapt to the daily challenges and also incorporate breaks and
rewards in an otherwise punishing and awkward life decision. And most
importantly, as Bryson comes to terms with not having actually completed the
full length of the AT, it is about knowing your limitations and taking joy in
all the accomplishments, getting a great deal more out of the experience that
the start and end points. And don’t care what anybody says: if you climbed one
mountain, you hiked the AT and if you lived in a foreign country for 27 months
working for development, you did the Peace Corps.
Heads Up It's a long one to update everyone since Thanksgiving
The Medical Saga that led to the Menagerie
I had heard so many stories of PCVs being gifted pets by
their community or taking in strays. The Volunteer who came before me had 2
dogs. And did I tell you she had 2 dogs. By the way, as every member of my
community says, she had two dogs….and she left them both here, where they cried
for weeks after she left. So, my community is not so much concerned with my
having pets as they are with what will happen to said pets after I finish my
service. Nice. But anyway, to start, I was promised a puppy German Shepherd,
Traviesa, whom many of you have seen in pictures on this blog. I made the
amateur mistakes of believing the word of a Nicaraguan (this may sound harsh,
but you will understand once you’ve lived here) and falling in love with an
animal that wasn’t under my rood yet. I then left for IST, or Training, for the
last weekend in November. This was followed shortly thereafter, with the
Medical Saga of 50 Shades of Diarrhea. Needless to say, the Medical Staff
wanted to check me out. Because I was in Managua on a weekend, the Bioanalysis
lab was closed and the Medical Staff preferred Metropolitano, the
state-of-the-art hospital that is even nicer than Porter Hospital in my
hometown. It’s actually kind of disgusting and sad how developed this one
little spit of land is in a country that is just one step above Haiti. But I
digress….
So Metropolitano apparently can email you your test results
or you can check them online with a PIN. I have never had a problem with giving
blood before, but Mr.
It’s-Sunday-so-it’s-a-slow-day-and-I-am-the-worst-male-nurse-ever decided to go
fishing around in my arm and then had the nerve to tell me to calm down,
breathe, and drink some water. I did more than 10 tests over the last 2 weeks;
blood, platelets, urine, parasite, amoebas, cryptosporidium (no idea on this
one), the works! I had stayed in a hotel in Jinotega for the week prior to IST
because I self-diagnosed a bacterial infection and a fever. The test results in
Jinotega pointed to not one but 2 bacterial infections (2 for the price of one)
and it’s quite likely that at least one was the same infection from the week
before. I stayed in the hotel to be
closer the lab and have a little more control over my diet (and be closer to a
modern toilet and hot water). The results from Metropolitano came back with
lower bacterial counts (yay for antibiotics) but a new yeast infection. Oh boy!
But that came two days after the fact, because the entire hospital network was
down, and the Peace Corps Office was closed on Monday. Thank God for the pool
at the hotel! The PCMO I had seen most often also wanted to check me for parasites
that do not show in other tests, so between walking back and forth to the
office, the hotel, and the lab, I
checked my email.
There was a general
email to all PCVs titled “Cats.” A
volunteer in Masaya had found a stray cat in her house and had begun taking
care of it when it has given birth to 4 kittens in the next couple of days.
This poor girl is not a cat person and is about to COS (finish her service) on
the 14th of December. So she wanted to know if anyone wanted some
cats. Well, in my current medically downtrodden and emotional state, I replied
that sure I would take them. She texted me asking how many I wanted. I replied
that they looked too young to separate and she replied that it would be best to
keep them all together. Sure I’ll take them all. And, thus I spent a week in
Managua as “that girl with the kittens” moving from hotel to hotel with a big
cardboard box with holes punched into it. Needless to say, all the other
Volunteers staying in the hotels wanted to see and ooooo and ahhhhh over Mom
and kits. And a big thanks to Hotel Los Pinos for letting me keep them in their
hotel while I went to appointments.
By Thursday I was more than ready to leave, and the tests
had all come back negative. Still was not feeling 100%, but once the tests come
back negative, there is no reason for the PCMO to keep you in Managua. The doctor asked me how much of my current
situation might be psychological………………………………yeah no not going there. She did
offer to send my report to a specialist and to the Medical Office in Washington
to see if there was anything a new pair of eyes might be able to get. But, with
the holiday season coming up, that might take a little while. So I gathered my
things at the hotel, shoved Momma Cat into the box and tried duck taping it
shut with the help of Hotel Staff, grabbed the bag of worms (I was also carting
worms since IST to hopefully use for vermiculture-they did not make it sadly).
Momma Cat managed to escape in the taxi, but the driver helped me shove her
back in before finding out that I had missed the 8AM bus to Jinotega and
waiting with a very pissed off Momma in the Mayoreo bus station. The bus driver
refused to let me have the box in the bus, so he loosely tied a piece of string
around the box and threw it up on top of the bus. Unfortunately, after the 3
hours bus ride, I simply took the box and walked to the next station to get the
bus to my site. I did not notice until it was too late, that the box was much
lighter and not moving. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, Momma Cat had escaped en
route. Don’t know where, don’t know when, but somewhere along the highway, or
in the bus station, is a very confused white cat with yellow and black
splotches. Luckily, I was able to stock up on baby formula and a bottle. Based
on e-How.com “How Old are Your Kittens?,” I was able to determine that the
kittens were somewhere between 2-3 weeks old, since they had just opened their
eyes and ears while staying in the
hotel. I was able to stay with a Volunteer en route to my site so I wouldn’t
have to walk to my house in the dark. She fell in love with the kittens and we
snuggled them and coddled them for hours. I got them back to my house the next
day and they have become the things-to-see for all the youth in Cuatro
Esquinas. The first few days were rough bottlefeeding, in part because the baby
bottle teat is about 10 times the size of Momma Cat’s teat and I can only
imagine how scary that looks coming at you, but once they got hungry enough, we
have all become pros. Words to the wise; it’s easier to wrap them up, it’s
easier to do them in turns multiple times, the little nails don’t hurt that
much, they learn to pee and poop on their own within the 3-4 week period. So that’s how I got 4 small mouths to feed.
But wait, there’s more……
Once I got back to site, and spent a full day getting used
to the feeding schedule for the kittens, I hiked up the hill to see Traviesa.
She was still there, but Dona Coco told me, sheepishly told me that they
actually weren’t selling the puppy. I begged and tried to understand why they
would go back on their word and even offered to pay for her, but her son said
that the pup had gotten bigger and started following him and he wanted to use
her to work the cows, so no. I was literally in tears on my way down the hill.
It may sound really cheesy, but I had
told so many people about that dog and had made myself believe that once I got
healthy and once I got back I would get a dog and this just seemed like one
more way in which I was still an outsider, out-of-sync and running out of
patience. Dona Coco told me I could wait 3 months until the mother gave birth
to her next litter, but I walked down to the pulperia (general store) where
Dona Moncha also had a few smaller black puppies. She had not vaccinated them
or given them vitamins like Traviesa had, but I was emotional and irrational
and asked her if she was selling them. One for 100, she said. Done. The next
day I returned and bought to bigger of the two. I had to carry her back to the
house, because at 3 months, she is not leash-trained and also terrified of
everything. I had already bought dog food in Jinotega on the way back to site.
The first night she did what any puppy in a new place would do-she peed and
pooped in the house. Thank God for concrete floors that are easy to clean. I
named her Sombra (Spanish for shadow) because she is all black except for a
little marking on the front of her chest. I washed her with flea and tick soap,
which was exciting because she can kick and squirm for a puppy. I easily got
just as soaked. I walked with her into Praderas to buy a real leash and collar
and vitamins and parasite meds. Everyone in my house drinks filtered water, but
God only knows what Sombra eats when she goes outside. She was nice enough to
take the hint after I tied her up outside to cry for a whole morning (literally
cry and howl) that she was supposed to do her business outside. She refused to
leave the house to go to town, so I carried her in my shoulder bag the whole
way there and then dragged her the whole way back on the new leash. She’s
starting to get the idea. She will not let me go anywhere around the house
though without following; latrine, kitchen, take a shower at my neighbors,
etc. She is neutral with the kittens at
least. But that is how I got one more mouth to feed. Current total is 5, not
including myself. And she hops into bed with for the night now that she’s
clean. It’s almost like home again to have something to cuddle and talk to.
By the way, I am not turning into a crazy cat woman. At
least 3 other volunteers have already claimed kittens once they are older and
the volunteers come back from their vacations. Still haven’t figured out what
we are going to do with the animals for when Dad and Sean come….will have to
see if they can feed on their own. Fingers crossed. I do love how my community
understands that I hardly leave my house now, because I am taking care of “los
ninos” or the children. According to them, because I don’t have actually
children of my own, these are my kids. My kids have taught me to be patient,
and to expect less of my day, to take it slow and develop manageable routines.
And they are also just funny to watch. As any single or new mother would admit,
the days fly by when there are at least 3 feedings in them. J
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Thanksgiving and Hiking in Jinotega
So we actually went hiking after Thanksgiving, but I uploaded the photos in opposite order...oops. First Thanksgiving in the Peace Corps and away from home. Had an awesome time (minus being sick) and it just goes to show that Peace Corps Volunteers always make the best of things.
Saturday went hiking with a bunch of Health Volunteers. We hiked to the Cross on the West side of Jinotega. This is the cool touristy thing to do in Jinotega: hike straight uphill up a huge flight of stairs (imagine Stair Master) to a huge cross. And you get views like this of all of Jinotega City as you walk up.
The girls-Katherina, Angie, Anna, and Julianne. All awesome Volunteers and kindred spirits. And all of us huffed and puffed together for a couple of hours. But we did it!From the top you can see Lake Apanas, the really big body of water on the map in Jinotega. My site is all the way on the other end of the lake from this end......all the way over theeeeeeeeeeeeerrrree. :)
Me on the top of the mountain. there is actually a flat part right before the cross where we hung out and caught our breath while eating oranges. And enjoyed more scenery! Definitely had some awesome parallels to hiking in New England and it's just good to get moving around after being on those buses.
The cutest pair of kids who found and befriended us on the top. And would not stop talking-but in the cute, little-kid way. And they followed us all the way down too, taking turns holding our hands. Soooo cute!!
Sunning on the rocks at the top with our new friends. It was super windy so we grabbed any sun we could find. The little boy definitely had a crush on Angy. We've decided that the boy is going to grow up to be Community Counterpart for the Peace Corps, because he has no problem talking to gringas.
The top with the cross. Needless to say, this is the cool place for the youth to hang out on weekends.
And then there are these characters who are apparently security for the cross. But it is a little daunting to see two people just walking around with rifles in the middle of jungle forest Jinotegan mountains when you're hiking. We had a lovely conversation though and he wanted to know where I learned to speak Spanish so well and if we were from the area. And he was nice enough to remind us to be careful on the mountain. Lovely.
Angie about the walk off the abyss.Don't do it Angie! Don't do it!
We made it! At the top! Little winded, windblown, but happy and sunny!
Walking down with the same cute kids. Here he is holding Katherine's hand "so he doesn't fall." I definitely think this shot is in the running for the next Peace Corps promotional material: Life is calling: Where will you go?
And then there was Thanksgiving at the Ambassador's house. She has a ridiculously nice house-with a pool and lovely artwork and everything. Turns out that I got to go by accident because I was listed as being from the AG 56 ,the group that has actually been here a year longer. But I'm not complaining!Especially not with food like this!! All the fixings and the trimmings. I won't lie- I went back for seconds and easily ate my body weight. It was so good!! Apparently they sell everything at PriceMart Nicaragua- I didn't even know they had a PriceMart here. And sweet potatoes and corn scallop and turkey and mashed potatoes---and I'm drooling again. :)
And the best part was the decorations! The Ambassador, who is one sharp lady, had all these squeaky bath duckies, all different thanksgiving characters: native american ducky, pilgrim ducky, turkey ducky, all of them.
One very happy Peace Corps Volunteer! I also got to talk to several Embassy families and staff, one of whom talked to me at length about applying for the Foreign Service after Peace Corps....hmmmmm.........
And then Saturday we had a get-together of just Jinotegan Volunteers at Harry's house, a Small Business Volunteer. Here are a whole bunch of the girls enjoying the amazing potluck dinner; rotisserie chickens, broccoli, squash, apple crisp, malanga-and drooling again. Needless to say, in the Peace Corps you slowly begin to resort back to college years when all you think about is food.
And somehow Johanna found this incredible little guy-waddling turkey. We let him hop around for five or six minutes and then needed the batteries. But we did get quite the laugh. And Harry said he came with the house.
Sunset over Jinotega from Harry's house. Gosh this is such a beautiful place! And what a better way to pass the time after digesting copious amounts of food?
And the next holiday is already right around the corner...or across the street from Harry's. :) Happy Holidays!
Saturday, November 24, 2012
The New House and the RASH
The Great Rash of 2012
The Kitchen
Ok, so now that the crisis has passed (knock on wood), let’s
get the adventure out. Last Saturday I
got back to my site from Managua with Cipro for a bacterial infection, when I
started breaking out in welts and huge red splotches at around 7 at night.
Since I am only allergic to zythromax and I could visibly watch the splotches
move and get bigger, I called the PCMO (Peace Corps Medical Officer), who
immediately stopped the Cipro and recommended Benedryll to get it under
control. Side note: the Peace Corps Office is technically closed on the
weekends and the coming Monday was Veterans Day. Yeah! After moving into my own house and another 48 hours
of lots of Benedryll (and even more suggestions and home remedies from all of
my neighbors), I walked into Praderas and hopped the bus to Jinotega and then
Managua to get into the office first thing Tuesday morning. I love Dr. Maria
Auxiliadora, my doctor of choice, because her lovely reaction to my situation
reassured me that I had a right to worry. Her exact words were, “It’s not the
worst I’ve seen, but it’s more than mild.” She sent me to a specialist at the
big, fancy Metropolitano Hospital (bigger and fancier than Porter Medical in
Middlebury- see concentrated medical resources in one of most impoverished and
malnourished countries in this Hemisphere). The dermatologist gave me stronger
prednisone (which I had been taking for a few days after getting it in Praderas
from a very drunk gringo pharmacist). I also got Allegra and Benedryll and was
told to follow-up in 4 days on Friday. And told to not eat (deep breath)-fish,
pork, milk and cheese, fried foods, things with condiments, pineapple, apples,
strawberries, seafood, etc. Oh-and the Gender and Development Training Workshop
was going on at the same time-so I was a zombie while working on empowering
women! And let me go on the record saying that there are only so many things
you can do in Managua before going crazy and/or broke. I easily just walked
back and forth from the hotel to the PC Office to reorganize my backpack at
least 3 times in one day. Good side- TEFL and Environmental groups were COSing
(close of service). Peace Corps
Nicaragua has a tradition that every volunteer gets to ring the bell in the
middle of the office to the applause of all the present office staff. There are
smiles, tears, hugs, and even one engagement proposal!! It was a mental
pick-me-up! Another good side was that almost all my roommates in the shared
hotel rooms were Health Volunteers who offered their concern and expertise
about the Great Rash. It was a little
amusing that the breakfast staff at Hotel Brandt’s knew me by a first name
basis by Wednesday and asked about my “condition.” Thursday was my first
spot-free day and then got the ok from the dermatologist to go back to site
after Friday! And we still don’t know what actually cause this lovely adventure!
The PCMO thinks that it may have been stress and/or a reaction with the Cipro.
But, like the number of licks to the center of a Tootsie pop, the world may
never know…. But here’s a picture to give you an idea of the things the tropics
can do to you.
The Rash Day One Hour One (don't think you want to see more)
The New House
These are not going to go up on the blog for very long per Peace Corps security protocol (don’t need people knowing where I live in detail, especially since all the youth who really want to know just have to walk down the road.) There are 4 rooms: bedroom, kitchen, shed, and middle entrance room. There is electricity inside and enough doors and windows with bolts and heavy duty gym locks that I will lock myself in and out at least once before X-mas. I took the pictures of indoors as I was unpacking, so forgive the mess and Witness Protection look. It’s a little better now. Already transplanted my tomatoes, spinach, and strawberries that I had been raising in recycled plastic bottle. I live next to the CICO, an abandoned preschool building. There is a washing board and faucet there that I share with the mom, Heysi, who lives on the other side of the CICO. That’s when there is water. Granted, Pantasma rarely has water shortages, but it was just coincidence that I left with the Great Rash of 2012 there was no water and when I returned a few days later, there was no water again. Thank God for the generosity of Nicarguans, I was gifted water buckets and some food to tide me over until I could get my own. Similar to how Vermonters can agree to talk about the weather for the first 15 minutes of every conversations, my neighbors started every conversation with the water update. is water. Granted, Pantasma rarely has water shortages, but it was just coincidence that I left with the Great Rash of 2012 there was no water and when I returned a few days later, there was no water again. Thank God for the generosity of Nicarguans, I was gifted water buckets and some food to tide me over until I could get my own. Similar to how Vermonters can agree to talk about the weather for the first 15 minutes of every conversations, my neighbors started every conversation with the water update. “Hay agua? Vino el agua?” or the worst “Se fue” (It went). My neighbors to the other side are the wonderful family of Don Oscar and Dona Marlene. Marlene is very quiet and 6 months pregnant. She loves to sing in the morning and the afternoon. Oscar plays on the baseball team on Sundays (he’s the catcher) and is a carpenter and engineer for the Hydroelectric project up the mountain. He’s the one who installed the entire new roof for my house and has offered install a shower or help make any other projects during my service. I am currently looking for wood to make a box for lombrices-vermiculture!! Still cleaning and organizing, and figuring out where the ditches are, but I would relate it camping. It’s what you make of it. I spend a little more time working on the basics (latrine, water, food prep without refrigeration, etc). And there is a team of bats with whom I am sharing my clothes dresser.
These are not going to go up on the blog for very long per Peace Corps security protocol (don’t need people knowing where I live in detail, especially since all the youth who really want to know just have to walk down the road.) There are 4 rooms: bedroom, kitchen, shed, and middle entrance room. There is electricity inside and enough doors and windows with bolts and heavy duty gym locks that I will lock myself in and out at least once before X-mas. I took the pictures of indoors as I was unpacking, so forgive the mess and Witness Protection look. It’s a little better now. Already transplanted my tomatoes, spinach, and strawberries that I had been raising in recycled plastic bottle. I live next to the CICO, an abandoned preschool building. There is a washing board and faucet there that I share with the mom, Heysi, who lives on the other side of the CICO. That’s when there is water. Granted, Pantasma rarely has water shortages, but it was just coincidence that I left with the Great Rash of 2012 there was no water and when I returned a few days later, there was no water again. Thank God for the generosity of Nicarguans, I was gifted water buckets and some food to tide me over until I could get my own. Similar to how Vermonters can agree to talk about the weather for the first 15 minutes of every conversations, my neighbors started every conversation with the water update. is water. Granted, Pantasma rarely has water shortages, but it was just coincidence that I left with the Great Rash of 2012 there was no water and when I returned a few days later, there was no water again. Thank God for the generosity of Nicarguans, I was gifted water buckets and some food to tide me over until I could get my own. Similar to how Vermonters can agree to talk about the weather for the first 15 minutes of every conversations, my neighbors started every conversation with the water update. “Hay agua? Vino el agua?” or the worst “Se fue” (It went). My neighbors to the other side are the wonderful family of Don Oscar and Dona Marlene. Marlene is very quiet and 6 months pregnant. She loves to sing in the morning and the afternoon. Oscar plays on the baseball team on Sundays (he’s the catcher) and is a carpenter and engineer for the Hydroelectric project up the mountain. He’s the one who installed the entire new roof for my house and has offered install a shower or help make any other projects during my service. I am currently looking for wood to make a box for lombrices-vermiculture!! Still cleaning and organizing, and figuring out where the ditches are, but I would relate it camping. It’s what you make of it. I spend a little more time working on the basics (latrine, water, food prep without refrigeration, etc). And there is a team of bats with whom I am sharing my clothes dresser.
Oscar and Marlene have two kids, Oscar Junior and Oscary (she’s a girl). They are both adorable and very curious. They and Isabel’s son, Engel, take turns just walking into my house and following me, watching everything I do. The Oscars are much more talkative, and try to update me on all the pertinent information of their lives. I think they are just wildly happy to have someone to talk to who is interested in doing projects. They are super creative and like to tinker. Engel is much younger, and currently is getting over pneumonia. Everyone is sick actually. The climate change, however small it may seem in comparison to New England, does a number on the community of Cuatro Esquinas. Everyone has grippe- which encompasses all flu-like symptoms. This is in part due to the slow damp end of rainy season and the entrance of chilly, uninsulated nights and mornings as we change to dry season. Jinotega is more mountainous and higher up, so dry season requires a sweater until March unlike the rest of the country. My fellow PCVs in Leon and Chinandega could not believe I even had a sweater when I came to the Office.
There is definitely a change in routine towards more independence, but also a scary sense of losing momentum as I shift to living on my own schedule. This also comes around the 3 month mark and I’ll admit that I certainly thought I would be knee-deep in projects and community activities when I looked at this point in my service from the perspective of a Trainee. Thank God for Dona Marlene and Dona Marta. As they say, “You are just starting.” We are so fixated on results and production as Americans, that I can physically feel my heart beating faster as I think about nutrition charlas, youth soccer games, cooking classes, latrines installed, ovens made, things built, things done. One of the local guys walked in on my conversation with my host grandmother and just offhandedly mentioned how he liked me better than the last volunteer because “you’re like us-you placticar y pasear (chat and pass time).” I was flattered and relieved these conversations were helping build social reputation and capital. Thank you for having a big family and the 20 Questions Olympics at Thanksgiving and X-mas. But the difference now, is that people are coming to visit my house to see me. They are placticar-ing with me about my security and giving me their phone numbers for whatever I may need. I’ve read about this generosity and sincerity of Host Country Nationals, but I will admit that I have never lived in a community long enough to just live in it (there was always sports and school, etc.). But here, it is my job and to the better of my experience to integrate, acclimate, adapt and reciprocate. I am getting better about not having to think about it or be culturally sensitive. But, I still have to remind myself, daily if not hourly, that development is a slow process. One volunteer once told me, “They were here before you got here and they will be here in 2 years when you leave; you have to find the balance between being the driving force and one of the guys.” Another volunteer who is about to extend her service offered, “It’s not about the flashy projects. More often than not, it’s balancing just living in your site with your basic job requirements. Just be ready for the opportunities when they come, but don’t force them. Your community should not suffer simply because you’re fighting boredom.” And lastly, “It is important to integrate and blend a little with your community, but don’t give up parts of yourself. You are what got you into Peace Corps. It should be a mutually beneficial and additive process; you don’t have to compromise to be a good volunteer.” While it is the best advice to keep you service individual and not compare to others, at the same time fellow PCVs are by far the best resources for coping and just sharing the moments.
My Room
The Chill Out Hammock AreaThe Kitchen
More Book Reports: a lot of time on the bus
The Glass Castle: by Jeannette Walls
This is an incredible memoir with the same tenacious and
objective spirit of writers like Frank McCourt. I inhaled this book in less
than a week (and a few bus trips to Managua-10 hours round trip). Jeannette is
one of 4 and you follow her and her unique family from state to state. Her
father is brilliant, a story-teller and hard worker-when he’s sober. Her naïve
childhood innocence holds out longer than the average person, through the
pickled fights and the broken dreams and piggy banks. The title comes from the
blueprints for an actual castle her father uses as his trump card whenever he
requires a good show of faith from his ever-faithful but eventually faltering
family. He incentivizes the creativity of his children to hang on and believe
in him a little bit longer, just one more time. This is with the backdrop of
several struggling parts of the U.S.-New Mexico and California ghettos to
long-gone coal mines of West Virginia and then the homeless corners of New York
after all the children have left the deranged nest to find their own lives in
the Big Apple. I found myself appalled, intrigued, amazed and awestruck and
also laughing, sometimes at the same time. You just can’t believe that this all
happened to one person, but the genuine tone and honest narrative makes it not
just possible, but inspiring. From
eating out of garbage cans to fighting at school because they are the dirtiest
students, I see the same spirit and infallible desire to play in the children
in my site. They may be hungry, malnourished, with family webs that confound
the imagination, but they still want to play soccer and braid hair.
The Good Doctor: by Damon Galgut
Did not leave as much of a lasting impression, but still a
good quick read. In essence, South Africa after apartheid with a small clinic
in the middle of nowhere and there is one doctor who has been there longer then
the newly, fresh-off-the-jeep rookie who has come to change the world and start
clinics, etc. Again, some parallels to the inevitable disillusionment of Peace
Corps service with the search for personal relationships across drastic social
political, and economic differences. The doctors clash over everything from
ideology to what is change and what is their purpose and what are reasonable
expectations given the living conditions and strife. It’s short and bitter, but had a few too many
introspective moments with not enough background information for me. However,
it does bring to light the importance of the composition of the volunteer or
the development worker down to the very last detail. Your character and makeup
is just as important as the community you are working with and it’s not just a
give and take. They are relationships and they are messy. J
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Moving in and Dealing with Learned Behaviors
Moving in
So the goal for November was to move in to my own place to
have a little more privacy and control over my diet and schedule. November
seemed like the perfect time because I only had IST (Peace Corps in-service
training) at the end of the month. Then I got sick, then I got nominated to the
gender and development (GUIA) committee, and I also signed up to spend
Thanksgiving with an Embassy family. All of these are great events (except for
getting sick), but they have turned the moving schedule into week-long spurts.
Good thing I have had so much experience moving! Hopefully, after getting back
to site today, the plan is to blitz-pack everything and move into my house
tomorrow before heading back to Managua Monday for the GUIA conference. I just
feel like if I keep putting it off it’ll never happen. I think a small part of
me is reluctant to move despite all the obvious health and sanity benefits because
there is a comfort level in not having to worry about food and security with a
host-family. This will also be new territory for me. I have lived on my own in
college, but that doesn’t count and I have lived with people who were not in
the house too often so I got a significant amount of independence, but this
will be the first time I’m cooking for just one person. Everyone in my site
knows that I like dogs, so I have a feeling company won’t be a problem, but
there are so many little things that you just don’t think about until they
happen and my Type-A is trying to think of all of them at one time (usually
when I’m trying to sleep). If anyone has suggestions (recipes, strategies) from
their own experience during this stage of life, more than welcome. Anxiously
looking forward to it, but also expecting a lot of pasta. J
Behavior Modification
I have discovered that I rely too much on the same behavior
modification strategies that normally work on American students and children.
In my site, there isn’t really the typical reward for good behavior and
punishment for bad behavior. This is in part because after a certain age, the
kids are working members of the family and have an enormous amount of
independence. The reason I am writing about this in particular is that my youth
have taken to not showing up consistently to practices and have taken to only
being interested in the friendship bracelets that I sell off of my water
bottle. They are so fixated on the instant satisfaction of buying something I
have shown them how to make or just playing with the ball rather than doing
drills or talking about exercise that I oftentimes wonder if I am just not on
the same playing field as them. If they goof off in practice or fight, I make
them run, but no matter how many times they run, they always complain and then
keep doing it; they don’t associate the behavior with the consequence. This has
caused a lot of frustration on my part, but it has also caused me to look for
other options. I now understand why volunteers talk about losing interest with
their own projects because the participants are inconsistent or don’t seem
interested in the objectives, just with the activities, etc. I think there is
also some frustration knowing that part of this dependent behavior is learned
from years of working with gringos in developing agencies who take pity on the
cute little Nicaraguans and give them things. My youth keep asking me when they
are going to get uniforms and when I am I going to give them bracelets or other
things as gifts. The concept of earning something rather than having it given to
you or buying it for the instant satisfaction is less appealing and, I am beginning
to think, even foreign. You also run the risk of becoming the gringo who just gives away free stuff with no link to a purpose, you are the gringo who has everything (or at least more than the people), you fill the stereotype.The constant struggle as a volunteer is to make
activities interesting enough without just freebies that the people genuinely
want to participate. But, if you think about it, how many activities or events
have we participated in in the States because we knew there would be free
stuff?
Thursday, November 8, 2012
More Pics and Reading
So this is a sample of what a world map looks like. There are two schools in nearby communities that already have maps and the volunteers before me used them for geography lessons and global connections with pen pals. I am hoping to raise enough money here (or at home if you are open to ideas) to cement smooth one side of the school in order to chart using a graph method the map and color code and paint it. Please let me know if you or anyone or any group you know is interested in this project. It is incredible how many students here don't know where Nicaragua or the United States is on a map.
My new roommate, the lizard-gecko thing. I found him hiding in my shoe when I got back from Managua and the Gala. These little guys usually scurry around the walls and make little chirping noises. they even run across the tv and eat critters up in the light, little sillohuettes in the soap opera frame. He's got character and I'm hoping he hitches a ride to my new house. He needs a name though....
This is the welder that I wrote about last time. Everybody, meet Don Totto. He is making a bumper for my host-dad's car for everyone to use to hoist themselves into the truck. Needless to say, we don't really believe in safety gear here. He is like that handyman grandpa that can do anything and everything and he always sits down and talks to me in a way that is not creepy.
This is Traviesa, the new puppy at Dona Cocos house. She is the CUTEST thing ever!! I have been pushing really hard for her to come live with me. Her parents and grandparents are awesomely huge, german sheperd guard dogs. But she is soooooo cute!! And she lets me rub her belly and pet her.....awwww! Yuri, Dona Cocos older son, has told me he'll trade me the dog for my blue sunglasses. Doesn't seem like too bad a trade.
I just thought this looked cool. Was walking back as it was getting dark and came upon a typical garbage burning. We burn everything from plastic to brush to whatever else people just don't want to see lying around anymore because there is no official trash collection. Burning smell....yummmm
And then this was just funny. The cats at my grandmother's house were looking for a snack. And they were willing to work really hard, and look really silly for it.
And the soccer boys. These are just some of the boys of the Cuatro Esquinas soccer team. They have the greatest spunk. They love playing in the rain (mud slinging and sliding makes it that much better).
Eliar Geobani- one of the smartest and sharpest of my kids
Jose Santos. One of the young ones who keeps up with the older boys or ties trying
The same lizard-gecko guy shedding his skin on my deoderant stick. He's clearly making himself at home.
Jose Santos helping out with this week's project: tree nursery! Me and about 5 youth chopped up some dirt at the CICO (preschool building) and filled the Nica baby plant holders aka plastic black bags for the tree seeds and tree cuttings that they collected. And they had no qualms about getting down and dirty! Most of them help their farmer parents plant coffee nurseries in the same way. They were way more knowledgeable than me and had no issues with carrying cow manure to mix too.
Other youth, Gilver, helping load the bags with our manure and macheted-dirt mix.
Engel, Isabel's son. Isabel is one of the leaders for the Community Bank and a brigadista (travelling nurse). Engel was only about 3 or 5 when the other volunteer was here, but he follows me around and always wants to help out. You just have to ask him, because he hardly ever talks...
Jose Luis, the most energetic and extroverted of the tree group. He did the tree nurseries with the Jessica, the volunteer before me, and his sisters were part of her youth group. He knew everything to do and how to do it before I said anything. And he loves to say "Es cierto..." So now I find myself saying it all the time.
And the final product (note the tree clippings in the close corner) with the other Gilver looking on. We finished just as the rain started.
More Reading List
The Broken Cord by Michael Dorris
Wow. A powerful true
story about a father who adopts a child with FAS (Fetal Alcohol Syndrome) and
experiences a very different parenthood. I’ll admit I actually had to put this
book down after the 1st couple of chapters because I wasn’t ready to
see the familiar New England names like Dartmouth, Sunapee, Claremont, Hanover,
and White River Junction. Dorris also has an amazing skill for weaving images
of the beautiful landscapes of the Dakotas and New Hampshire (again made me
miss home to read about Northfield carnivals and whiteouts) with a synthesized
academic and anecdotal account of his struggle for the thing every parent of a
special-needs child never achieves: reliefe and acceptance of the child in
front of you. As a sibling of a different special need sibling, I was startled
to read the same expressions of confusion, protectiveness and anger and
challenge to keep pushing the unknown limits and potential of a struggling
individuals’ abilities. We are so fixated on reaching the assumed ultimate
success story of a parenthood: an employed, educated, and independent
individual. What angered me was that this book is from the 80s/90s and FAS
treatment and prevention has yet to make huge progress since. We still don’t
know exactly what causes Autism, so we treat symptoms and vocationally prepare
adults who are still very much children. Many told me this was a sad story and
it is and will continue to be as long as we don’t react to research, as long as
we ignore anectodal evidence. I decided not to follow a degree in psychology or
special education for the same conflict of interest Dorris notes as he goes deeper
and deeper down the rabbit hole of study groups, published manuals and
legislation: you can never shake your too personal account, never shake your
sobjectivity. Today’s society still shuts out thos who have the most to lose
when deciding things like treatment and vocational programs or early diagnosis
services. Whether it’s FAS or Autism, they both cost the federal government
billions and the powers that be are still reactive and not productive. I thank
God everyday that high-functioning Aspergers individuals have the ability to
learn from their mistakes, but the incessant structure Dorris mentions as the
infallible key to his son’s limited success is true too for Aspies, as well as
their need for supervision and vulnerability to bullies and abuse. As an older
sibling, I understand how difficult it is to conceptualize and accept different
set of life goals and not intuitively identify it as a failure somehow on your
part as the nurturer, the elusive progress never ends. None of the involved
parites are happy until you appreciate the child in front of you, for all of
his quirks, successes, and struggles. There are lots more coming, but he is
unique, and like Adam, mine has conditional love too (despite those angsty teen
moments).
Sunday, October 28, 2012
End of October and Current Reading List
Went for a hike on one of my days off with Julianne, a Health Volunteer in Jinotega capital. She knows all the best places that aren't in the book. And then there was this lizard on the trip into the mountains...
And we found an old fort (note the cool spikes!) with downtown Jinotega in the foreground and the moutains with green coffee shades to boot.
Me in the fort
The were the most massive spiders I have ever seen on this mountain! We almost walked into them at least 4 times. Julianne says they are nice and actually one lived in her room and she tried to feed it, but it didn't like gallo pinto.
One of the mountain barrio neighborhoods surrounding Jinotega city.
Two of my youth girls making pan de guineo, or banana bread, with me! It's a big hit here!
Current Reading ListTwo
Confessions of an Economic Hit-Man
Not great, but not terrible. Better than the first time I
read it, but that was for school. The book is sadly already beginning to seem
dated as there are several NGOs and individual whistleblowers who have pulled
the corporate conspiracy curtain away in the day of blogs and Internet. It’s
much harder to hide but the real question is why the general public still
stands for it? I also think as a Peace Corps volunteer I am at the wrong end of
the development spectrum. My commitment and ones like it are limited by the
technical knowledge and financial support imparted by the same politicians and
companies that want the raw materials to have the same prices and people to
stay illiterate. Nicaragua is a little different because it’s in bed with the
United States and Venezuela and yet still can’t feed itself. John Perkins
looked for philosophical and political solutions, but what about the family in
the developing country? What about the community right in front of me? What do
they do? They can’t pick up the phone and call their congressman. Do they
continue to let others make decisions for them, by simple advantage of
geography and money, continuing to react rather than chart their own plan of
action? I also don’t see the projects of Peace Corps making a significant
difference in the long-run in the greater picture, which makes me a little
skeptical that I’m just window-dressing, a guilt assuage for corporations and
the government. This is not a new feeling; I’ve read and written several papers
on similar feelings amongst Volunteers throughout the Corps existence. It does
bring to mind the problem of scale and perspective. The trick in Nicaragua is
that the people are very much educated and aware of political happenings, but
there is an understandable confusion in the carrot of aid programs followed by
the sticks of cutting projects and refusing to renew waivers for debt.
Linda Brent: Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl
Not a book you would think of reading in a developing
country, but I picked it up out of curiosity in a lending library in a hostel
in Matagalpa and found myself finishing it before I got home. This is a
relatively authentic historical narrative of one black woman in the South.
Linda (not her real name) is surprisingly literate and an excellent storyteller.
Her voice and style pull you in-she is genuine with her diction and cadence of
a self-taught slave whose primary source of reading material is the Bible. It
was a little difficult to keep track of all the family members and their
relations (much like Nicaragua). Linda is a house-slave who never actually
experiences the typically horrible fieldwork with overseers and whips, but you
still sympathize with the harassment she suffers by her master, including when
he tears her family apart. It is hard to believe, but there is still a time in
history when one race considers itself above others and believes it is by
design. You can still see this today.
The Blind Side
I really liked this one, proven by the fact that I finished
it in less that a week. I watched the movie first (which was also very
well-done) and I was impressed by how sports media is mixed with the individual
story of Michael Oher and the overall philosophy of the left tackle in the NFL.
I’m nowhere near a football fan, but even I was able to follow along and enjoy
the historical and statistical banter. As an athlete, I also enjoyed reliving
those moments of time measured by seconds on the field, before the play, after
the hit, making split decisions that seem to take minutes but are actually less
than seconds. I only wish it didn’t take famous athletes, or dead
could-have-beens, to draw attention to the public school system and continued
racial discrimination.
Also read…War by Sebastian Junger (same guy who wrote
Perfect Storm), Lady Knight and the whole Protector of the Small Series by
Tamora Pierce (blast from the past)
But you Know So Much…
It’s all relative. In one world, you need certificates,
diplomas, and degrees to be an expert. Classes and practicums to get a piece of
paper saying you know what you are talking about. In another world, my
nationality and the stereotype of prosperity is immediately linked to
expertise, of knowing everything. It’s exhausting, terrifying, and dangerous.
It was funny in college, but here it puts you on a precarious pedestal with
only half the balance. I was talking to one of the mothers in my community,
sharing my experience as a babysitter feeding and caring for young children and
caring for my little brother when she exclaimed, “Meghan knows so much about
children and health!”
I’m not a nurse or a doctor; I have babysat a lot of kids
and have gotten plenty of scrapes myself. But when you are considered an
expert, you are responsible for those who look up to you for “the answers.” And
heaven forbid you don’t know or get it wrong. Then you fall from grace, if you
want to call that grace. No, no, no. I am not an expert. It’s all relative. I
don’t know firsthand what it is like to have kids of my own, or to make rice
and beans, or make tortillas without burning my fingertips, or hand-wash all
the soap out of clothes. I have not actually had my own family or built my own
house or farmed my own land. In this, and more, you are not the expert either,
for there is someone who knows more than both of us. It’s all relative and it
means relatively nothing. Working as equals, complementing each other is far
less stressful and much more enjoyable. Let’s do that.
An example of modern-day colonialism…Banana Bread
Aside from the fact that there are something like 20 more varieties
of bananas, or guineo, than the one golden yellow Dole that frequents the
markets states-side, you would think that all Central America knew this recipie
or that perhaps, banana bread even came from the same region as the number one
ingredient. Turns out no. Turns out this recipie makes me look like Julia
Childs and everyone wants me to visit their kitched for a special. The people
have guineao, tons of it! They have eggs, oil, sugar, and you can even buy
basic baking soda and baking powder in the pulperias in little rolled paper
tubes that look like funny cigarettes. And yet nothing happens without the
recipie; the ingredients stay separate. And not just the recipie-the
experience. With something like a 50% literacy rate, learning by doing is the essential
way to go. There is an incredible capacity for memorization as a coping
mechanism in the wake of this illiteracy. So I simply stand to one side and
read the directions aloud. They know how to cook; they do it at least 3 times a
day. They have the equipment and the raw materials, but lack the developing
step, the mechanism that changes one stage into the finished product. Sounds
like something I read in my American History textbook in 3rd grade,
about how one group had all the raw materials, and the other had all the
knowledge and machines. And with one oven and one recipie, an added-value
product enters a new market, a group is enlightened even in just a culinary
sense and a door is opened. Connections are made and trust is gained. And it’s
high in potassium too.
No School
There are 3 classrooms at the local school; one for
preschool, one for grades 1-3, and the other 4-6. They each have at least one
day off a week and these aren’t frequent holidays. The teachers have families,
someone is sick, there are meetings or community commitments conflict, or
whatever. There are even weeks when it’s the opposite and there is only one day
of school. Any American kid would jump for joy and any administrator would
cringe at the inevitable gaps in learning. But the school is local, so there
are no busing or lunch issues. The kids walk to school all polished, wait or
play in the front yard until 8, and then run home or loiter with their shirt
untucked and backpacks flung to one side. And when there is no school what to
do in Nicaragua? Watch telenovellas, play with cellphones, or play pick-up
soccer. Very American. Or work hard in the fields to help your family scrape
by, carrying more than your body weight in firewood or bags of corn. Because
you don’t know or it doesn’t matter that somewhere in the world there are
learning standards and United Nations Millenium Goals for Education or child
labor laws. The family’s gotta eat. And when all else fails, we can always
watch the gringa. And maybe she’ll give us another word search or other strange
math and writing games. There are 4 kids sprawled on the ground outside my
house all working on English sopa de
letras (word searches) because they are all bored out of their minds.
Ode to the Chinela
For reference, chinelas are the plastic slap-on sandals that
every Nica worth their salt has for housewear.
You can quitar the chinela in emergencies, like an itch or
the ever-annoying and painful ant bite. They are sturdy enough you can leave
the house in them, but they won’t do your arches any favors over any length of
time or distance and they have no traction in the rainy season mud (trust me).
They are plastic, plastic, and more plastic, coming in blue,
green, orange, and pink, in case you ever have trouble finding them or your
feet. But for hanging out, peasearing tiempo in the casa or the hammock,
cooking in the kitchen, or half-drowning your bottom-half while doing laundry,
there is no better choice. Kids wear them until they walk out of them, and then
they keep wearing them. Teevas and Chacos got nothing on these.
Totto the Soldadura
So I needed a solderer for the improved ovens my community
wants to do. There is a soderer in Cuatro Esquinas, but he only does lamina.
Apparently, there are different types of solderes. But, he knows a guy who
knows a guy. Totto. I immediately think of Dorothy and red shoes, but I follow
my guy, Don Sergio, into town. Everyone
knows Totto. Well I don’t and you’d be surprised how many people will change their
names to Totto just to talk to the gringa for a few more seconds. We walk down
an alley close to the Centro de Salud, my home away from home. We almost pass a
huge truck, but Sergio stops and says we’ll wait until he’s done working. There
is someone under that thing?! He pulls himself out from under the truck and
walks around to us, smiling confidently and greeting Sergio like an old friend.
I didn’t know the human body could hold that much grease and oil. Work makes it
impossible for me to tell his age but he has an interesting seafaring mustaches.
Totto, or Cristobal if you want to be formal. I reach to shake his hand, and
while trying to wipe his hands with an even dirtier rag, he offers his wrist as
an alternative. After a short explanation of the job, he asks briefly if the
oven looks like this, pointing to a barrel in the abck of his workshop (a shack
of wooden slats and boards). That’s exactly what they look like. Perfect. He
offers 300 cords per oven and I could kiss him; it’s one-third what the other
guys in town asked for. I ask him to sign the price recipt. No he saysand I
can’t tell if he’s kidding or yanking my chain in front of his fellow
grease-buddies. I ask again and again he says no and looks around the shop with
eyes that seem say and smimling at the same time. I’m flustered and ask why,
thinking I’ve missed something. I have-he doesn’t know how to write, he says,
and doesn’t want to get my paper dirty, calling one of his cleaner friends
over. Together they figure out how to phonetically spell his name. Welcome to a
developing country.
Echar Tortillas
My boss informed my that women here are not able to marry
until they can echar (do/make) tortillas. Granted, this is the staple to all
the meals of the day, but he didn’t really have to prick my competitive
personality and womanly pride to encourage me to integrate even more. This is a
two-day process. The night before, the less-than-sanitary water is boiled (the
color changes-it’s interesting) then the corn from the field or the silo is
added and pushed around with a long wooden paddle, soaking for several hours.
There is a musty corn-husky smell to the kitchen as the pot is emptied into
another container which is topped off with cold water to cool and further
absorb overnight. Early (like dark early) someone takes the corn to the Molino
where it’s ground into masa or dough. Depending on the desired size (I have
been told I will be working small until I can handle it) you take a decent size
glob of masa, and using both hands like a pot-maker, you form a disc with a
dimple in the middle. This is then placed on a pre-cut cellophane page and then
the rhythmic beating begins. Pat-pat. Pat-pat. The sound echoes through the
house and even out to the street, with the slight swish of the moving
cellophane. One hand pats, and the other expertly (unless I’m doing it) keeps
the circular shape. I am getting better at this part, thanks to my familiarity
with ceramics. The next step is to flip the paper so the tortilla is in the
palm of your hand, using your other hand to peel the paper away carefully. The
paper likes to stick or hold bits of my tortilla, and the tortilla also likes
to cave-in between my fingers. Quickly, the tortilla is palmed between both
hands and placed from front-to-back on the comal, or a ceramic cooking-disk. It
doesn’t matter how many times I watch these incredible women deftly put 50 or
more tortillas on a comal, the anxiety that the tortilla will cave or the heat
of the stove or my nerves over my fingers make it impossible for me to complete
this final step. I honestly think, and several volunteers agree, that Nica
women have burned the feeling out of their fingers with the practice of picking
up and flipping the tortillas with their bare hands. It’s a source of pride and
somewhat of a competition of will and pain for the women within a house and the
community. But today, Dona Martha told me to try again. The 1st one
she placed on the comal for me, giggling that my hands were so debil
(delicate). After wetting them (trick for newbies) I made a big tortilla but it
crumpled like a bad turnover when I practically dropped it on the comal, to the
laughter and tsking of all the women now watching in the kitchen. Start small,
she says, as she scrapes the one that se
dano (sickened/died). I have the last one of the morning, small enough to
almost completely fit in my hand. I hold my breath and gently slide both hands
under the edges, gliding the pressure of the dough circle from my pinky to my
thumb, putting the tortilla on the rest of the comal. I did it!! Fist pump and little shout of joy, to the
delight of my fan club. Now flip it, they say, grinning. Oh God! They take pity
on me and let me use a knife to get started. After a split-second hesitation,
they worry it will burn and stick to the comal and they offer to help. No. I
can do this. The independent woman in me shouts inside. I hold my breath again
and quickly grab the edges with my fingers and flip. It all lands,
right-side-up, back on the comal. And the bottom is just tan, just cooked. I
did it!! They shout for me! Oh God. Ow. Ow. Adrenaline wears off and my fingers
remind me that I have many more mornings of this before I can deftly do it
without thought for my fingertips or the inevitable A&D ointment…but I
still did it. Best-tasting tortilla yet!
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